Finding Joy

It has been a long time for a lot of things...

since my last blog post

since my last praise with God

since my last sense of joy in friendship...

Though they sound so negative, it has been a long time coming for me to finally feel differently about those things and share it on my blog. I had a lot of ideas about what I wanted to share, but this is what I want. Something raw and real; my sense of struggle. 

School can be stressful, and between scholarship applications and preparing for college, the senior year stress, chaos, drama, life itself, I have been swept off my feet. I was having a hard time knowing what sturdy and steady was. To be stable and constant. I was so stressed and lost in chaos that I feel like I lost myself for a while. The last time I blogged was over summer, where there was no stress, I could breathe and not worry about school. But so many things have happened since then, and I have learned so much.

I have always tried to have a better relationship with God, but sometimes it is difficult to as a student, and that shouldn't be any excuse, but it is true. We get carried away with so many things. But I have realized that that is exactly what is okay. That is the point. God pushes us to work for our faith. It takes work. It doesn't just come easily or handed to us on a nice platter. I have tried to find time for myself, and for God, and for prayer, and to light a candle, to read versus. I do. But not consistently. I need to try harder. I want that better relationship with God. A better relationship with God will help me to have better relationships with friends and family, and myself!!!! 

As I have struggled with my faith, I have struggled with being happy in friendships. Young women need to be lifting each other up, and that's exactly what I need to do better with, as do many people, guys and girls. Last night, I spent time with some girls discussing God and the Bible. Half of the girls I didn't even know until that night, but I felt so close to them. I could trust them and feel them radiating these genuine vibes. People that actually care about what you have to say, and what you're going through, they are trustworthy. It is incredibly rare to meet those people, so you need to hold on to them. I felt that God brought us all together because we have really been needing each other. 

As I get closer to God and to genuine ladies, I am feeling 1000000 times better than I was a few months ago when I was bogged down with school, and a long list of other things. It is incredible what one night with friends, or one peaceful and successful day to yourself, or reading a few versus can do for the body and mind. If you are struggling, or even at an ultimate high in your life, my phone is always open, and so are the comments below. I would love to hear what you have to say. 

This post was probably unexpected because it is unlike anything else I have shared on my page before, and the first post in months. I want to end with a few quotes I have found that are uplifting and positive in case you are in need of an extra push today, or tonight, or tomorrow, whenever you need these...

Thank you for reading this blog post. I understand it was lengthy, but if you made it this far, thank you! And I want to mention, even if you aren't religious, or are still finding your place, everyone should be happy and uplifted, whether it be by God, friends, or whatever gives you your purpose. Until next time, comment, check out my social media, and subscribe to the blog! Au revoir, Nichola Rae ❤❤❤